mercedes

Okay...I dont care if there are replies to this!
But i need to get this out!
Mer you have never cared about anyone but you!
All you ever want are for ppl to be there for you...you never are there for anyone!
It kills me to tell you this...but i'm starting to hate you!
I miss the old you...the one that cared about others!
The one that i could make a joke and you wouldnt get it and still laugh with me just to make me feel better!
I cant deal with your drama anymore...if you dont want to to talk to me any more than dont!
But when ppl start telling you the truth and you cant take it...dont come running to me!
Go ahead and tell everyone my secrets...it will be good for everyone to know them!
But dont make up crap!
Because i have plenty of crap on you!

There's a part in everyone that cares about themselfs more than others, so get over it. If u calm down and don't come on here, and think real hard about it u wont be mad. Ure not mad at her, ure mad cuz u kw that u can be with her and that makes u very mad. I kw that ure going to be cusing at me when u read this but idc. If u get mad she'll grow even farther from u.

I'm not going to yell or scream at you. I just want someone to understand what I am going through with her. I cant deal with all the drama right now...honestly my being away from her...i feel so much better already. I'm not mad at her...i'm just upset and done with the drama that comes along with her...just not right now. I think she needs to learn that just because shes pissed* at someone doesnt mean she can use secrets against them. If someone can help me help her understand why im upset. I think we could work things out. But she needs to make herself feel better...I cant make her feel better...she has to do that!

I hav no way of controling mer and deciding who she should lyk, so there is no way i can help u. I don't realy even kw her, or u.

Grrr! I hate this all! I hate the drama! I hate the crap that we all go through! It's gay! I'm going into high school this year! I dont wanna have to deal with Middle School drama! But obviously no one seems to get that my Bi-polar disorder takes control of me and I get out of control and hurt ppl i dont want to hurt! GAHH! When someone understands...let me know...